" Not all who wander are lost."


Day 7

Someone who has made your life worth living for...

This is easy, and tough at the same time. It's a "which came first? The chicken or the egg?" scenario. My immediate answer to this question would be Hannah. Raising a daughter has been the greatest experience of my life. Colors are a little brighter and laughter much sweeter when she's around. I am constantly thinking about how I am living and setting an example for her. I have no idea how we celebrated holidays before her. This sweet child made us Santa, the Easter bunny, and the tooth fairy (and little known sheet fairy, if you've heard my latest stories). Hannah has brought so much joy and pride to my life. She has made me examine myself and forced me to find joy in even the most difficult situations. Becoming a mother is something I didn't know I wanted to do, until she arrived. Suddenly I became a dreamer, a fairy princess, a creator of cupcakes, a playmate, and most importantly a guide for her in life. I love living so much more because of her. I simply can not imagine life without her. It's impossible.

So, she's the "egg", but what about my "chicken"? (doesn't every man long to be called a chicken?) Jason and I have actually been together almost 12 years and have been married 7 1/2 years now. I could not even define my life without him. He is truly the other half of my heart and brain. Everything I do affects him and our life together. Without him, I would not be the mother to our sweet child (no explanation necessary, right ;). I can not sleep well without him next to me. He knows me better than I know myself. Our life has been so richly blessed, and I can not even begin to think of what it would be without him. Even when we are bickering and squabbling, in the back of my head I keep thinking about how I still wouldn't have it any other way. He has truly completed my personality, grounded my dreams and helped give them roots, provided a rational thought to my emotional tenancies, and given me the stable family I always dreamed of. Jason has made my (our) life worth living, and Hannah has made Jason and I's life so much sweeter.

How I pick one? I refuse. The family we have created has absolutely made my life worth living. (friends, you may want to remind me of this next time I am repairing a cut dog ear, or pouting through 6 football games:)

side note : This blogging thing is AWESOME! I am already feeling more open and less tied down to the past. I highly recommend each of you answer all these questions, even if you don't publish them. I happen to have lost all inhibitions and fear of judgment for what I am writing. I am who I am, and am really enjoying putting it in writing. I love the sweet comments and hopefully some of you are getting to know me better through this process. Anyone got tough questions they want to add to the 30 days? There are a few I may substitute, only because I feel like a 16 year old may have written this list (make a playlist for someone? wth.)

1 comment:

MelissaLVMT said...

I am so glad that you are doing this. It seems to be a good thing. I know Jason and Hannah feel the same about you. Jason is lucky to have you in his life and every time he and I have shared a random Facebook post, he always mentions you and how much you and Hannah mean to him.